WW, My Addiction, Patience, and Hope - III

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Been a couple days. Quick update.

Wife can have surface conversations with me, and I think that's about all she can muster. I'm not upset around her anymore. Stopped snooping around for the most part - a quick check on my facebook account shows that OM isn't a friend of W, so I'm pretty sure there's still NC.

D7 got sick, W stayed home, went into work last night - wasn't too happy that with my new job, I'm in the first week, and really didn't feel like calling in sick already. D7 did get better, so all the kids are off to school.

W continues to work out and lose weight - she's looking good. I think part of her healing will be her body image. With the improvements she's making, it can only help.

I'm still leaning towards my wife divorcing me in 2 months, when the hold on the D is done. I was a bit sad this morning being around her, but for the most part, I'm ok on my own.

I've been able to let go much better than I was. There are still moments that my heart wants a hug, a kiss, some tenderness - but those are less than they've been in 15 years. I love my wife, and show her that through actions, but could it be that I'm not IN LOVE with her?

Wife posted a worded piture on FB about missing the love of her life that came in her life and is now gone. Her heart is very much hurting. I can't do a thing for that.

My gut tells me it might take her all the way up to the end of the hold on the D to start to break free from the love of OM. Maybe longer. I'm in for a long slog.