Divorce Papers

[TimR]

Well we did the tax thing tonight. I got the distant but nice W. I have to admit that I was terrified of what was going to happen and while it was not the best case scenario that I hoped for, it definitely was not the worst case that I dreaded either. She was civil, not too nice but engaged a bit in small talk. Her body language said keep your distance.

Here though are the things that shocked and scared me. My wife is a princess. Beautiful and seductive. She is also bold and brass in her feelings. Tonight however she could not look me in the eye. We have had in person interactions in the past and she never failed to look me in the eye. Tonight however, she kept her head down which was very not like her. I don't know if it is pain, guilt or what but she could not look me in the eye. Before when she yelled at me she looked me straight in the eye. When we met for wrestling she looked me straight in the eye. Tonight she turned and met my eyes once and she almost immediately looked down.

Also as I said she is a princess. She prides herself on her appearance. She has lost a noticeable amount of weight which is fine. She goes to the gym a lot. But she also looked tired. Her clothes were not quite right. She had a run in her stockings. Her nails (which she also worked on) where not done at all. The were very short and not polished as normal. She looked sad!

I wanted to hug her and tell her I love her. My heart screamed to comfort her. My hands trembled and my heart sank, lower than it already is. I wanted to tell her "If you just come home and we are a family again, we can get through this." INSTEAD, I continued to act as up beat as I could making jokes with the tax preparer. Did my best as if and left before she was done. But god she needs some prayers, I have never ever seen her so low.

After I left her there, I felt relieved that my worst fears did not come true but I am so saddened by her state.