I often catch myself beating myself up. "If only I would have done this, or if I wouldn't have done that".
The truth is, WAW has issues that only she can figure out. She too, blamed me for everything. When you hear that over and over again from the person you love, you can start to beleive it.
I was far from perfect, but I always tried to make amends. She would often hold onto her anger and use it as a weapon. She could hide behind it and not take any responsibility.
Now that we are NC, I wonder who she will point the finger at when something doesn't go her way.
