Waw, she is in love, need advice/support

[Bear007]

I am bit mad today, because... well, can I say I contributed to my marriage demise? Or it was lack of communication? or my wife's resentment torwards my action?

I am having this occasional thoughts, although I am aware that majoriti of this comes to my WW and her irrational future.

I am also mad that she showed me she is willing to change (I have been pushing her for years), but not for me or because of me, and I am mad because it hurts.