Having a down day. Stopped by H's office to give one of the ladies there something and to pick up some things ,as well. H never said hello or acknowledged that I was there. Don't know if he saw me or not, but I'm pretty sure he did...I was there for a bit talking to a few people. He was talking to a client, too, though. I never know what I'm going to get when I see him.
GAL activity after that. A little talk about my sitch, but I moved through that quickly.
I'm feeling anxiety about my ski trip. All of it is unfamiliar. I know everyone I'm going with, but not well enough (with exception of D25)to feel comfortable.I don't know the mountain or trails and its supposed to snow all weekend, so I might not be able to read trail signs. I am probably the weakest skier. And then there is the specter of H being there with the family I AM comfortable with.
He will want to see D25 and her friends. He has so much control over what ever situation he is in. Everyone loves him...it makes me feel like an outsider. I want to show positive interactions with him, but don't want to push or pursue. My D says, "just have fun". I'm going to try, but I just don't feel I have a place. The anxiety is eating at me.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
