I got to thinking about all the comments. I know I have faults but the difficulty for me is knowing which of mine are genuine as everything in the past has been my fault anyway. I look in the mirror and like and respect who I am as a man. I have reflected back alot these last few hours and I honestly don't believe I was loved.
Keefa first of all I am sorry you felt like I was kicking you, thats not my intention because I like you am a NICE GUY.
If you go back and read my posts at the start of when I began posting here I said the same thing as you. I like who I am when I looked in the mirror. There is nothing wrong with me. Yup everything that went wrong in my marriage was my fault too.
So this is not meant to kick you however everything was NOT my fault, nor is it YOUR fault. I understand totally how you feel.
I think what was my fault was not standing up for myself and thinking that if I did something then my ex would love me. First of all - she did not love herself, so how could she love me when she was using me to try to find love, and keep herself from being depressed.
I am glad you made a few steps in a direction that please you, yesterday. You will keep making steps and that is going to lead to bigger and better things.
