Well I decided to believe my H because my d5 just woke up looking for daddy and crying since she cant find him, then crawled into my bed and hugged her teddy saying she is going to sleep with her daddy.
I think my baby is having a hard time with all of this.
I will say the thought of another women changed something in me. I yelled,cried, got angry, read a ton on here, accepted it could be true, breathed, told myself knowing isn't going to make it better.
I feel more..determined? Determined to detach better. Determined to gal more. Determined to accept that yes this could be true and yes it could become true later if it isn't.
I know this journey is for me. Its 12:06am my time, he just called me to ask if the kids were good last night.
I took your advice, I told him this funny story about s3 being goofy and dancing and D5 learning to sing for school. I didn't mention or bring up anything for earlier.
I went and got out a ton of pictures of my kids, hung up about 10 new pictures down the halls of baby photos until now photos.
My dresser has photos of me and my kids, siblings, etc that I printed from my printer.
I put my girly air freshener in my room and hung up girly curtains I have and my number comforter Thats gold and cream vs the manly black one.
I will be okay.
As much hurt as today gave me it also helped me.
I realized yes I still care too much:detach more
Yes I am GAL but not in the right way.
I got to feel some of your guys pain when there is or might be another women or man.( I'm not saying he doesnt have one but I'm letting it go until I have 100% proof or any proof)
I realized how much power I let him still have over me and my life. I never want to feel like this again and my goal is to make sure I never do.
