Deciding Whether to Separate

[brutus3]

So I'm definitely noticing a pattern. Just like last Wednesday, my wife picked up our daughter from my place and has her for 3 nights. I started choking up as she loaded my daughter in the car. I haven't cried in 3 days. Instead of walking into town and grabbing a few drinks like last Wednesday, I treated myself to a movie and watched 13 Hours. I got so depressed on the way home. Thought about texting the wife, driving by my old place to see if there is someone else parked there. Very dark thoughts...

Made it home, going to do some art. I was messaging an old college buddy and told him what was going on with me. He actually envied me (so did my happily married boss). I thought that was interesting.

I also messaged my 1st wife (1995 to 2001) to gain some perspective on what happened to my first marriage. I actually had an EA on her because she was crazy possessive but went back to my wife and tried to work on our marriage. My 1st wife ended up leaving me after a couple of years, found someone else. The pain from my EA I think did too much damage. However, my ex did admit that leaving me was a huge regret and she wish she stayed and tried to work out our problems. He admitted that her problems never went away, they always came back when she was with other men.

Anyway, so that was my week....