So lots of talking tonight. Told her to leave originally. After talking to my counselor said if she leaves it's like a vacation for her. Whatever. She didn't want to leave. So she's in guest room in basement. Still says she loves me and isn't planning on leaving. I said what about the OM? She said obviously it needs to end. No sh!t. So torn. On one hand I want to serve her papers and say get out. On the other to hear her say she is sorry for fn up our life's and hopes she can fix it wants me to give her a chance. I don't kmow. Still crazy about her even though I can't look at her right now. But will she ever be able to give me her best? I know I'm done doing anything nice. I will be a good dad and try to work on me. My question is I've been in pain for 6 months. Do I just put an end to it for my sanity or do I fight thru another 6 months minimum of trying to see if it can work?
