Still crazy after all these years.......

[Jack_Three_Beans]

Sort of [censored] when they don't live up to expectations or even minimums.
Recall the old saying here Mire, You cannot change them...at first its a way to protect yourself when you first get here. Later its sort of sad for different reasons.
Not sure what to say here except sorry that you're at this point. Sorry your H isn't living up to his end.
But, I know you'll be fine no matter what happens. You will be golden.