So now my d5 told me today that she saw me in bed with her dad last night. My H said he has no idea what she is talking about because no one was over, there is no one else, and he wouldn't be dumb enough to have a girl in our bed, in our house, with our kids when our kids crawl into our bed with us every night. She woke up and was like daddy, I saw mommy in bed last night, where did she go? He told her that I wasn't here and then she let it go until now.
Then my d5 said well if it wasn't mom it had to be we will call her kay. Kay is my ex best friend who stayed at my house for a few months(2-3 nights a month) while going through her own D. She knows kay used to spend the night and hangout and they ask about her sometimes. She was like an aunt to my kids and we always did stuff together.
Her xh and my h were best friends in highschool and he was also good friend with kay. Well I had to stop being friends with kay because I told her when we got separated that I had a few people ask me if it was because of kay.
(Like was she another women?? because she spent so much time with us, was it because he was friends with her in highschool and now he can try to date her? etc etc etc?) I found out after we separated as well from his sister that he used to have a crush on kay in highschool. She said she would never do that to me and she was dealing with her own D from 2-3 months ago and she was going to not cut him or me out of her life but be distant. She was hurt that I would even think she would ever do that to me, but at the time I was like IDK what to think.
I have not asked if they talk or have seen each other since we separated. She lives 1 hr away so I don't know.
I didn't fully cut her out of my life just told her while dealing with this I needed space and I haven't talked to her since besides merry xmas and happy bday texts.
D5 does have a crazy imagination on some things. She has asked him if he has cheated, she tells us we aren't married, she asks why daddy ran away and never comes home, crazy stories about school or tv shows etc...but I can't seem to let this one go.
Her story keeps changing though so IDK if it is true or should I let it go? I am having like a panic attack at home. First she said she saw something brown next to daddy(I have brown pillows) then she kept saying it had to be me, then she is like well then it had to be kay. She is the only ever person who has spend the night in my house before besides me. She is convinced someone had to be in the room.
Who do I believe? My 5yr old with a huge imagination or my wah who is freaking out worried that I think he cheated on me and has no way to prove he didn't. He is very upset right now but is it real or because he is caught?
He told me he couldn't even warn me about what she said. Oh hey d5 said she thought she saw someone in our bed last night but it's not true so don't believe her. He said THAT sounds suspicious. He said he wishes he just said yeah it was mommy because he had to convince her it wasn't me so she would stop looking for me around the house.
I am half tempted to call kay and her room mate to see if she was here or not but that might be crazy. I am about to be in full pyscho mama stalker mode.
Squiggy, roar, pink and V- This is what I got from you guys.
Keep being Sexy
Strong and confident
Detached
PMA
Make my room more ME
More pictures of my kids up vs all the photo of us up
Fix my 180 of ignoring him to being more FUN
Talk more about kids and the fun things they do and leave us talk alone
Talk and make things less heavy (prob the best advice since lately if we talk it is all serious. no fun. about money or divorcing or whatever!)
Take myself of the angry area. I have realized I guess I am angry. I am hurt, angry, frustrated and just NOT FUN to be around. I DON'T even want to be around myself the last 2-3 days.
This:: You do not need to prove you don't care, because he knows you do. Show him you can be fun, spontaneous, charismatic, a wonderful mom.
I have been trying to show him I do not care, which isn't working well.. so now I will give that 180 up in favor of more fun one.
