Mu...you have such a sweet, kind heart. I truly hope you find peace and happiness again soon. With your W, or otherwise.
SciDad...my H also went through a period when he was angered by loving words. He told me they were a slap in his face and he felt manipulated by them. It was the strangest thing to me because they were always deeply sincere and heartfelt from my end. Oddly, in recent months he has actually asked me to write him some of those letters. He also showed me a stack of letters he found that I had written and discarded in the trash without giving them to him. He insisted on keeping them. This is such a crazy journey...