New night(s)

[kyrie]

So last night... I spoke to the Bishop on my way home from work (so I only heard about half of what he said, ugh). But basically he said I shouldn't have asked about his repentance or anything about the affair. I should just focus on forgiving him and not arguing. I explained that *has* been my focus and struggle for many months now, though I know I'm not *there* yet. I also explained that H is the one who keeps wanting to discuss everything, even to the point of coming and waking me up and not letting anything drop or be done. He asked if he could talk to Tony about that part. So I said yes.

Last night w/H, thinking about what the Bishop said, I said that I think it was wrong for me to ask you the things I did last night and I should just stay focused on forgiving. He got mad and said again that he does NOT want my forgiveness and I shouldn't even bother to focus on that and of course I don't understand him at all. UGH

I guess I'll wait & see how his talk w/the Bishop goes.