He was semi annoyed I went out and ignored his calls. He called about netflix 3x. 3 missed calls then I answered: whats this show on netflix the kids want to watch? Umm idk ok bye. A few more calls. Hello? Oh now you wanna answer well i dont need you know..okay? Okay bye. 2-3 missed calls later. I found the show on netflix. Im like ok? Thats it? He is like yes. He texted me to ask if I was home safe yet. Then this Today.
I feel like anytime he acts like he cares or misses me he HAS to find a way to show me he doesnt.
He called me a little ago to ask me a question but then he said hes sorry he made me cry even though he did it to himself. He didnt think it would make me cry. I said Im fine and ended the call.
I like the idea of putting up photos of the kids on my dresser and wall. I hate it looking so empty in here. I noticed he cleaned off my dresser and closet as well.
I don't know why he wants to hurt me to see if I care. It is just mean. Just really mean. He says he knows me inside and out so He knew it would hurt me. Plus he did it again where I say Nothing and let(try to) go and he pushes me asking non stop until I crack. I said I was fine probably 20 times before I snapped and cried.
That is true. I let something so small really crush me today. He can and might be gone forever so what does a picture matter. I'll leave them in my closet. I was half tempted to put them back up but I just dont want to anymore.
The only thing important is me and the kids right now.
I dont trust the alien. I wont sign or do anything pink. I really won't. Im not ruining my future and my kids.
