Hi Vanillia. Thanks for checking in. Nothing much to report really , kids very busy with exams right now and not much time for going out. We still have movie night and pizza night but we are in a bit of a rut right now but only due to circumstances.
But quiet at work at the moment and that's never good but we shall struggle on !!
W is still the same , seems ADs have helped with the upset but nothing really new. She does stay in the home with is once a week now and it's all very comfortable when she's here I don't really get into her life unless it's something she asks me about and then I answer honestly and succinctly
Like others I do see how easy it would be for her to return home but I also see she is far from leaving her fog even though I do see glimpses. She's still appears very unhappy and seems to be bouncing along the bottom
When I stand back from my own sitch I think a new R isn't possible and probably not wanted by W. She has a new circle of friends and a new life. It's far from perfect from my point of view but then I'm not her I've had the apology for how she acted ( nothing specific but I didn't press ). I've had her say she was happy throughout the M and she didn't leave me but her life and I have her regularly telling me she's unhappy I suppose I'm lucky that there is no history rewriting and her life is kept to herself and she does appreciate me for how I look after kids but I suppose she just doesn't love me anymore and that's that
I have an appointment with my L next Tuesday to discuss legal seperation because I feel I want some control of the sitch and starting proceedings will get me back some of that control.
Obviously it's not what I want and yet I feel it's time because W appears happy for the status quo to continue and if that's due to depression or something else I can't control it I'll see what L says because I saw him last year and he advised against it because enough time had not passed
