Extremely confused

I am now living alone in a shell of a house stuggling.
I 'think' I am very very slightly past rock bottom but not really sure yet. I am hoping this thread plots a significant change.
I've been told to take the afternoon off work again as I cannot stop the tears. My thoughs this afternoon are quite simply, where did I go wrong ? I provided, cared, worked hard, supported, did my share and so on and so on. My stbxw has never, not once, even tried to talk about our M or the D. it has just been a series of statements 'I want a divorce' or letters from her L. Anyone any thoughts on why this has been so decided right from the BD ?


me45,W43 S9,S5
T15yrs M10yrs
BD 4/07/15
W wants D 4/07/15
W filed 8/05/15
D petition arrived 21/12/15 Merry xmas,
W,S5 S9 moved out 5/2/16