I can relate to how you are feeling. I'm worried about what I'm going to do with my house too. We just moved in 6 months ago after planning this for a year.
It's easy to beat yourself up over the things you did wrong in the relationship, I do that too. But your W wasn't perfect, far from it.
I think the trick is to break life down into really small bite size chunks. Try not to look too far into the future, easier said than done because I struggle with this too.
