Another night. Tick. This it utterly brutal. the only thing I can liken it to is waiting in an airport for a long delay to pass. I just count minutes into hours. I think about my boys constantly. I think about what she is doing using them against me. Sometimes I start to doubt myself. Was I a good Daddy ? Am I a good Daddy ? I looked through the pics on my phone and it gives me unbelievable strength knowing that yes with no doubts, I am a good father to my boys. I know they look up to me and we have a bond that is true father and son. It made me smile inside but it hurts like nothing I have ever felt. I am strangely content knowing they are eating properly, I hope their school work is not suffering. I have a parents evening tonight so will take time to talk with their respective teachers to note any change in their behaviour. I am at work again. Today's mission is to find super hero duvet covers for the boys bedroom so its ready for when common sense prevails. I have no money still but pay day is around the corner and have a new 'single' bank account ready. I keep telling myself. The now is not the forever...
me45,W43 S9,S5 T15yrs M10yrs BD 4/07/15 W wants D 4/07/15 W filed 8/05/15 D petition arrived 21/12/15 Merry xmas, W,S5 S9 moved out 5/2/16
