Good Afternoon Roiste...hope you are well. Hope you are finding some comfort wherever or whatever you are doing.
If you are mulling over stuff, I get it, your protector mode does not like uncertainty/instability (and yes I consider what situation you are in an 'emotionally unsafe' place right now so protector self goes into overdrive trying to figure out a way)...try to find some way to show yourself some real appreciation for what you are going through...take a break for a little while, go play with the kids, go read a book wrapped in a a comfy blanket with fuzzy socks on...whatever it is that you enjoy doing...
