Aww...I didn't mean to put bad thoughts in your head, Rain. Maybe it will be different for you. Especially if you are able to regain some semblance of a trusting relationship in time. I have never been able to do that.
Anna, please don't feel bad. You were honest and it scared me. I really thought (hoped) that eventually all triggers fall away after time. Not so sure anymore. Yikes!
The other night when we were discussing when and where he would be looking for his new place he for some reason became dejected and said he wants to write a will and put it in a safe deposit box in my name to make sure that I am in charge of his funeral.
We went back and forth a bit because I don't like that kind of talk. However I didn't give it too much time. Just reminded him that he has children and that whatever happens it better be by God's hand and not his own, but that yes, I would do as he asked.
Then he went silent for a minute and said "who knows what the future holds for us." Whatever that means. Six months ago I would have been excited about that.
