I think you owe it to yourself to spend a few bucks and see. I also think you are being very emotional pushing things.
very emotional huh... that could be the case. I cannot be making any decisions based on emotions for sure. It has been a crazy three weeks in my head. I need to get back to where I was 2 months ago. I was focused and could follow a plan then... I was stronger. Now I have trouble following a plan (even minimum contact which had been easy). The plan was to not worry about any of this stuff until the 1 year mark. Obviously, I failed at that. Friends urge me that it is best to leave this mess behind. To move on, get closure. I know it is because they do not want to see me hurting so I cannot really trust their advice, it is biased (and they really dislike WW now).
OK.. so now back to the plan. Let this go for a while, don't even think about it unless she brings it up. Go back to no/minimum contact. I did contact her twice in the last two weeks, nothing major, one way texts about the animals and a snow storm in which she responded to right away... but I still wish I didn't do it.
