Those DB'ing coaching sessions are a bit pricier than I had thought. I will still think about it though. I am not sure there is advice that can be given to save this though.
The urge to push things forward is becoming over whelming. But I am not 100% sure if it is based on a logical thought process or emotions. I think it is logical but it might not be. Some say divorce only changes how you file your taxes. In my case, I do not believe that. It would bring closure and true detachment. I am not sure if that can actually happen without it.
I have also been thinking about the respect issue lately. Isn't this whole situation showing some pretty decent disrespect towards me? I mean to leave but not push through with divorce and leave me in limbo seems disrespectful and unfair. She gets everything she wants, a life where I am completely out of the picture but yet she still has this life line attached to me.
The good news is I have a job interview in a few weeks. A change of positions could be just what I need right now. It would definitely draw my mind elsewhere.
