Thank you Sandi... I realize it is a choice. I realize that is the greatest power I have is to make choices. I am choosing to fight for my M until she says she absolutely is done. I believe deep in my heart that we can come through this. My counselor made the comment on how bizarre our situation was to him. He said he can't remember a couple who (when being talked to individually) spoke so highly of the other person. He said he has never her us once complain about each other. I believe it's because we have something very good, but she is just in a very weird place mentally. I think she is confused and scared, but knows she loves me. I think possibly she's starting to see all the damage she has caused.
I just wish I had a specific road map of things I need to do. What are things that will help and what are things that push her away? I hate being a mind reader. Does backing off mean not doing the daily nice things I do like make her lunch or get her water bottle ready, start her car. Tell her to go take a bath while I get the kids to bed? I know she appreciates that stuff and she says it. But is it hurting my cause?
