You are making your mark on where you live that is good and taking one step at a time towards the future, good job.

Everything you are feeling is quite normal for the stage of grief that you are at.

Please acknowledge that grief and keep moving forwards as painful as that is.

You can do it and right now you need your oxygen mask on,
you must save yourself first because that is the only way
that you may save anyone else.

When you get to a 100 posts shortly start a new thread.

That will also help you mark a change for the better within yourself.

I know this.

Me-70, D37,S36