New night(s)

[kyrie]

I can't stop thinking about separation and divorce. Posted some of this earlier:
Recently I read a bit about the idea of covenant vs. consumer marriage. It also lead to thinking about why Jesus Christ allows for only adultery for divorce. Perhaps it has a purpose (LRT?) and when is it appropriate.

I keep thinking about it. ... when covenants are broken, God cut off the offender (Israel, who also represents the Church, and in the Christian faith, wives also reflect/represent the Church in relation to Christ).
He cut off Israel in order to let her hit rock bottom but also to wake her out of sleep/ignorance so He could call to her again.
I'm wondering if that model is appropriate here. But I could be wrong. I'm not God.
Last night I couldn't help it... he led the conversation in such a way that it came around to broken vows & what the bible says about it (of course, he only wanted to talk about how I was a bad wife, not his own). So I respectfully asked if now was a good time for us to talk about other broken vows (his). He said snarkily, SURE. So I asked. Of course, he responded by stonewalling and saying it felt like this was only about leverage or playing a game. I said I understand why it's hard to talk about it - it's not honest to say you're going to talk about it and then not. And I walked away. So he came and pushed again about it only being leverage, blah blah blah. So I said a few things I don't even remember and ended up saying the real question is are you sorry for what you did? He said he already told me that he confessed his sins to God & he didn't need to be sorry or confess anything to me. I paused and asked is that a Christian thing to do? How do you feel about that?
"I don't care anymore".
So I took my ring off and handed it to him. Took his off his dresser (put it away) and resolved that I'm moving forward with separation and possibly divorce.

Also thinking about talking to the Bishop - as a head's up if nothing else.

Not sure what the next step should be. Ask him to move out? Talk to a lawyer?

I don't want to be entangled in his downward spiral anymore.