Had a fairly long talk with the WW last night. She sure seems to appreciate my NC and giving her space. We talked for a while and it seemed very nice and friendly. She did ask about my counseling and how I was getting along. I probably shared more than I should have. Then there was the regular barrage of compliments to my character etc. etc. So weird and confusing. The bad cloud of emotions seems to have passed for now, sure there will be more to come. I have counseling tomorrow night, so looking forward to that. Am going to try and get some more through blocking / staying focused type help I guess. Would it be completely inappropriate to meet a female friend that is not interested in romance? Would that only delay the pain? I want to walk straight through the pain to be free of it at some point. I understand there will be triggers for the rest of my life, but the emotions will not have the same intensity as time goes by. Still seems like my hope is fading each day, and seems to fade more with each tear. Is this part of the detachment process? I still believe in life long marriage, and she's the only one that can give me that. I'm inspired by the patience / perseverance I see in the stories on these boards, and hope I have the strength to do the same. Were many of you in the 0% chance of reconciliation area? That seems to be where I am (still).
Well, I'll keep doing one day at a time.
M 43 W 45 M 10.5 T 15 S 26 D 17 (previous relationships) ILYB 12/25/15 + asks for D Confirm affair 1/10/16 W has D ready to sign, but agrees to wait for refinancing to go through (I get a house!)
