I am overwhelmed with the compassion you my dear friends offer me. Thank you very much, it means a lot to me.
Anna, I may retrieve it tomorrow but I'm not sure. I am trying to quantify it's value and I am coming up with zero. She keeps hurting me and it is beginning to hurt less and less.
Fo, It did hurt when I first saw it now not so much. Six months ago I would have been devastated. I am more disappointed right now more then anything. I recognize she is on her own journey which at the moment has her walking away from me. She may never turn back or give me a second thought and that is her choice. I live each day with expectation of sharing a few precious moment with my kids, that's it. If my wife chooses to speak with me great but I have zero expectations she will.
Di, I know she could choose to live her life with me. I am willing to wait and see. I have this time with my kids for the next 2 1/2 years and I will fill that time with as many good memories my kids can hold. If my wife comes around great and only time will tell.
Jelly, thank you for your kindness. I realized the other day how much you all mean to me. I have deep feelings many people here. You are my friends and I hope I never lose you.
Gronofr, I understand what your saying and what my wife may be feeling. The thing is,"Tu es pour moi la plus belle" means "You are to me the most beautiful". It is how I feel, how your husband felt. My wife may not like the way she looked in the photo but to me, no one compares. I may not be the sharpest pencil in the cup but when I truly believe my wife is the most beautiful, she should live with it. I'm sorry if this seems harsh, if it is, it is directed to my wife. I worked really hard on those frames. I hand picked the wood to have the best grain pattern. I cut the wood in such a way that the grain flowed, lined up and continued all the way around the frame. The joints were perfect, the cuts were perfect, the messages were heart felt. Now it sits at the bottom of a drawer. I will give it to one of my daughters if we get divorced.
I think I am in the process of detaching or dropping the rope so to speak. My days are now filled with disappointment and occasional moments of sadness. Gone are the days of devastation, emptiness and longing to be with her. She is not interested in me or what I have to offer. C'est la vie
