First time poster-needs advice

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I have been reading through others stories in the last week or so, but haven't felt I have anything to post. I feel like I'm in a rut and am trying to figure out how to get out of it.
I've been doing really well with not initiating any contact unless really necessary and ironically enough I got a text from him that was not about the kids/money or schedule. It was a weird question/attempt at a joke, but I haven't had one of those in a very long time. I guess I have to look at that as progress?
I have let my GAL activities slip a bit and then that's when I start focusing on the fact that he's not here. The more I get out and do things with others the better I feel. I've also decided that I need to be the one to make some plans with friends. I've always waited until someone asked me to do something. My new goal for the month is to set up a mom's night out with some friends. I think in the past I've always been afraid to be the one to set something up b/c I thought everyone would say no and I would feel bad about myself. I think now I just need to try and stop being so afraid of rejection.