I've eaten first thing since Thursday. I've slept a couple of hours on the sofa and I've had a shower. I've not cried for a few hours now except some tears when I spoke to my boys on the phone. I cannot get a handle on all of this still. 10 months ago I thought we were happy. I read some old texts from then and we seemed so close and life seemed good for her. I don't understand what I have done that is so bad, so wrong, that it warrants what has happened. I just don't get it. I'm going to go back to work tomorrow. Solicitors next week to petition for access to my boys. I think I have taken a small step. Bank account empty. Credit card maxed. Bills mounting up. Nowhere to move to once house sells. Getting better is never going to be enough. Either something monumental happens or I accept this is how my life will be until another change is forced on me. I cannot think in positives, I simply can't find any.
me45,W43 S9,S5 T15yrs M10yrs BD 4/07/15 W wants D 4/07/15 W filed 8/05/15 D petition arrived 21/12/15 Merry xmas, W,S5 S9 moved out 5/2/16
