S and I had a chat about dog idea. He is sharp and knows why W suggested it. He said he'd talk with Mum so I assume he has. I haven't brought up the matter again. I have virtually NC with W. Last Tuesday she texted me about a finance issue and signed off with a kissy face emoticon. I wished her a good day and since then nothing. S met mum one lunchtime for a quick meal.I've started my cooking course and played a bit of soccer last Thursday ( still recovering!). Friday night I ate with sis-in-law and some of her friends. We didn't talk about W and I was friendly, funny and welldressed so if they talk W will know I'm doing OK. S and I have spent a quiet weekend watching sport, he saw friends etc. I know nothing about her and am trying to live from day to day but I miss her lots. Resisting the temptation to be the friend she wants. I know four months is nothing but finding the NC hard, I'm lucky to have a great R with S but I wish the W was here to share our lives. Miss her and don't know how long I can keep going without giving in and being her best friend, let her have her cake. Only the risk of losing S's respect stopping me.
