LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

[gs9]

Hey otw,
Thank you for checking in.
Being around people really helps me too. I stayed at a friends house last night so that helped last night.

The 70 min drive to the office didn't help and now I'm in the office alone for the next couple hours.

Talking here is so helpful. I've also been texting with a friend.

I'm having a very physical reaction to all of this. I've had symptoms of slight head cold for about a month. I missed a couple days of work with cold sweats and no energy. Today I feel shaky and very cold. Can't seem to warm up. I've been texting with a friend and she asked if I feel like I'm coming down with something more serious or if I'm sad. When she asked unfortunately I couldn't answer. Recognizing, admitting and labeling feelings is so new to me I'm not sure. After some time I was able to respond with " I feel out of balance and not in control. I've spent so much of my life very balanced. Not too sad, not too happy, not too angry....just very middle of the road. I'm disappointed with being out of balance. I feel chaotic. I feel like I want to escape these feelings but escaping doesn't help deal with them. I feel unorganized.....maybe overwhelmed. I'm not sure if that's too strong of a word. "

Definitely shouldn't be alone this morning.