Thanks, I will have to look into the audiobook. I listen to podcasts but lately I'm so lost in thought I don't hear anything.


So w wanted to talk about r or rather d last night after she got home.  I didn't want to as it was late and I'm trying to take advice and give her space.  Everything was calm. I tried not to say to much and follow other advice I've been given. We talked for a while and she finally accepted an apology for me not standing up for her with my mother in the past after I rephrased things (& explained some things) thanks to another thread.  Then she apologized for hurting me (I took it as referring to A but she didn't say that). Then she said she "just didn't think she could ever love me again." She has said that phase three times now.  Twice last night.

During our talk I also got directly compared to her parents again. It was very strange and made me pause, I think she was expecting one of her parent's reactions (or both) out of me.  She also told me she talked to step mil during her trip and has been talking to her throughout this. Well I know the latter part of this is a lie.

She asked about the book she sent. I looked at the author and she wrote another book about finding your true love in a few days (don't want to list any actual titles). I told w I looked at it and researched the author and found her other books. I said it must not have worked out so she wrote the second one and kind of laughed. She told me her friend recommended it and she just skimmed the preface. This is one of her friends whose husband doesn't ever have a job and cheats on her but she always stays together (w is always telling her not to put up with his As; idk how she makes sense of hers).  Makes me wonder if she is helping push w to do something she really wants to. This is so frustrating. 

W says she just wants to go. She said she wants to take her car, student loan, and credit card and d while spitting custody. Our other debt is my student loan and the mortgage (we just bought our first house). 

I kept it together last night but had to go to work early this morning so she or the kids didn't see me so upset. I knew it would be coming but it still so painful.
She wants to talk about it again tonight so I guess I better brush up on my homework again today.