LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

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Ugh! Having a hard morning again. Had D4 exchange last night. WXW thought it necessary to tell me all the travel plans she has scheduled for the next 2 months. A couple of them are obvious work related but she felt the need to tell me she's going to the virgin islands for 5 days not once but twice. Then to tell me she'll be gone from Thursday - Monday. Can't help but think this is a trip with the guy she told me she was seeing. A couple weeks ago she sent me text messages accusing me of having a girlfriend and then she told me she was seeing someone, she sent me a picture of him, she said he just bought a house in Million $ neighborhood and had her pick out all the furniture. I know she was lashing out at me and was jealous even though I don't have a girlfriend and it's all in her head. But can't help but think she's probably taking a trip with him. I know we're D'd but it wasn't my choice. I want us to be healthy and to be a family again. Committed to each other again. IDK why I would want to be with someone who would purposely say things to hurt me over and over and over again. Glutton for punishment I guess.

Maybe she needs to spend this time with him so she'll see I'm the better choice and he'll see how far out in left field she is. How unhealthy she is. IDK. I hope so. And I hope she'll see the light recognizing that she needs the professional help that 2 of our MC's recommended she gets.

Trying to move on with my life. Trying to accept that we may never reconcile. Having a hard time accepting it.