so, its been a long time since I posted. W moved out and took the kids on 1-3-16. She moved in with her mother. I have been getting the kids every weekend and for the most part we are doing pretty good. I have been working on the house to get it ready to sell and trying to clean up the clutter. W was a pack rat and refuses to throw things away. I am feeling good about the changes I have made but I still get down in the dumps every Sunday when I have to take the kids back. W seems to be worse and hates me even more since she moved out. She doesn't say much to me but when she does its just more about how I was a terrible husband and father for the past ten years and that this is all my fault. I know now that it doesn't matter what I do or say that she will still hate me and continue to blame me for her unhappiness. I have apologized profusely in the past and I refuse to do it anymore. I have owned my part in the decay of our marriage and have been trying to be a better person. It seems that the improvements I am making bother her. I'm so sick of hearing how this is all my fault. It doesn't matter who's fault it is at this point. We are where we are and I'm just trying to bring some peace into the situation. However, this does not seem to be what she wants. I just want to be happy and move past all the bitterness and resentment. She on the other hand has embraced the bitterness and refuses to let it go. I try to ignore the spew but sometimes I still fall into the trap. Anyway, I just wanted to check in and give an update. I am still trying to maintain hope for our marriage but only time will tell.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16