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[KGirl]

What is a normal length of time to be grieving (like the high-level version - crying every day, thinking about him at least every hour, etc.) - obviously it's going to vary for everyone but at one point should I be concerned that this is past the point of grief and a bigger issue like depression? Mornings are the hardest, I've realized. I'll wake up and after a second or two it will hit me: "Sh*t... he's gone. I'm not going to see him today or talk to him or text with him. And probably never again" and then I have a lot of trouble getting out of bed. I can try and tell myself all the rational reasons why this would be a good thing by emotions get in the way. It gets better by the the end of the day once I've gone to work, read a couple of articles I've bookmarked to remind myself that he wasn't actually involved in the R like I was, etc. but then it starts all over the next morning. I didn't experience this with XH because by the time I moved out, I was so stressed from seeing him all the time that I was looking FORWARD to not having him be a part of my daily life. With XBF it's the opposite - he became a part of my life and then abruptly ended without much warning or lead-up.