Hi Keefa. So sorry your here Your seem to have execpetd the M is over and often that's the hard part. Of course the anger and despair will come and go but please believe me that things will get better and maybe not the R but your life will get better and you will look back on this time as a painful memory but maybe a learning time as well
I think we have all had thoughts of finding a way to end the pain but at the end of the day you have your hoys and they need you more than you will ever know.
On be GAL thing , it's needed to move your thought process away from the pain and concentrate it somewhere else The term fake it until you make it is there because you need to be doing the things that will get you through this even if it doesn't feel like it's helping at the moment
This is so tough and the only way through is to go through it.
Your time with the boys sounds great and there will be lots of those ahead
