surrealism is not my style

[ciluzen]

C- I understand you haven't voiced your responses...and if you did he wouldn't react well. It's more of an exercise about what his narrative would be if he was able to express himself maturely.

Maybe skip 1-2 and just focus on that. What would his feelings be in response to this:

that I made myself miserable, that I liked and loved him almost more than life itself.

Actually, this I have voiced, in response to what he has said. Before I learned to not have R talks, and also when I "fell apart" and had R talks anyway (he initiated some) after he filed, I heard again how he made me miserable. I told him that I made me miserable, not him. He actually made me happy. His response? No! You didn't like me and I made you miserable. There is nothing wrong with you, we are too different. There is someone out there that will be perfect for you, but I'm not your guy. You don't like me.
I will do your assignment. There has been a lot of discussion between us. No, I don't always truly validate his feelings. It is difficult to do when he tells me how he thinks I feel about him as if it is a fact. It is also hard to do when he tells me I don't need to change...that I am a nice person.
But I believe I will just agree with him from now on. Yes, I see how I made you feel that I didn't like you(no but). You're right, I can see how my actions made you feel unappreciated. That I didn't show you how much I appreciated the things you did for me. I see that you viewed our differences as too big to overcome or ignore. I understand that you don't want me to change my personality(again, no but).
Again, I will do the assignment. I have done some similar things in my journal, trying to learn how we got to this place. I have a lot to think about.