Went back to my first post, REALLY IN DEPTH rereading all of those posts from cadet as your welcome post. I feel like this week I have been lost and the closer we get to V day the worse I am getting because I know i'll be alone.
Back to basics:
DETACH.
Believe none of what he or she says and half of what he/she does.
Have NO EXPECTATIONS.
Take care of yourself, breathe, eat, sleep, exercise.
It is 9:24 pm and I have had 4.5 hours of sleep in 24 hours, I have only eaten one taco and a piece of toast today, I haven't exercised and I haven't relaxed. I am now making myself soup, going to lay down, watch the superbowl and get ready FOR SCHOOL TOMORROW. I can't let myself ruin my school on monday.
I also lost my voice today and think I got an ear infection because my ears are hurting. I need to take better care of myself. Everytime we have a D talk, even if I do well I let it affect me to much. I let it consume me and make me break down and usually I would be up all night tossing and turning thinking about it.
Wish me luck at school! First time since before kids =/ NERVOUS.
