May your journey be

[Vanilla]

I have hope with the new L. She seems like she wants to push things.

Terrific news.

However hearing xh2 and his claims and behaviour she is like omg he's such a catch!

NOT!

But as I went Thru today that Sinking odd sense of doom I used to get before randomly passing xh2 on the road or me drving by him in the street was back.

Is he around anywhere? Is this likely to happen?

It didn't come to anything which was seriously good news. Shows that internal warning system is off kilter and false now. Which is great news, I can deal with it as a feeling that is of no harm.

So how have you done that Gg?

Reliving some of the stuff, just for L information was like talking of someone else. A great feeling. Little backslide on sleep tho and generally unsettled which can account for the feelings of doom.

I get the nameless dreads when I need to talk about WH too. Especially over the abuse in my sitch.

Just goes to show we all backslide from time to time.

And how.....

S18 has phone once but won't leave message and he doesn't take calls! So who knows what his drama is.

Is he with his dad?

The whole being defensive when confronted makes me Sound guilty, I need to just state my case and walk.

I do get that absolutely I do. Like walking through customs feeling guilty even if there is no contraband.

Slight panic attack today when put on the spot,and I wasn't prepared for it. Sweating looking for an escape, really flight and fight stuff. It was after the doom feelings had gone.
Caught me by suprise and I'm not sure what triggered it or why.

Was it a particular question? We're you talking about something specific?

I hope it's all ok now.

I sort of have this feeling too that decisions and big changes are looming, but most have been made and the action to carry thru is just more of the same. So I'm unsure why I have that feeling.

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You are normally spot on.

V