So we met today and for the most part it was good. We did chat a little about her work again. I have no expectation of er asking how I am Nd she doesn't. I don't tell either.

It just hurts she is done. OM is still in the picture and I thought I was past that. I'm not. I am so mad at myself for everything I did that contributed to this. And I am so frustrated because I have already changed and kept it up for 3 months now. With zero backslide on what I needed to do to changes. And though it feels great to myself it means nothing to her.

That is why I just want to bury these feelings and move on. I am done hurting over this. I am done with te pain she causes me. I just want to be over it and not love her anymore

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.