Update... So I haven't mentioned the trip. Still stressing about it big time. Think we are close to getting away from OM and would hate to see slip up. Know I have zero control.
There was interesting dust up with her and once BF. Lots of lies hurt her friendships too. Lots of couple friends who are real disappointed. As of now we don't get invited to stuff for good reason. Last night she was bummed we didn't get asked to join them for a night out. I said, can you blame them. Told her it [censored] I lost my close group of friends I'm a way too. She agreed. Later a text battle with BF about lies. W broke down after saying I had no idea how many people I was hurting. It liked seeing her in a little pain.
She was extra cuddly in bed but I gave little back. I reassured her all of our fiends would welcome us back in time if she wanted that but it was up to her since she made the mess. She agreed.
Ugh... So hard to detach when I know she is in a bad place and showing so much good. I have backed way off on contact and ILUs. Still being kind and trying to b confident.
Wish she would say... I know my trip will stress u out but I swear on our kids you have nothing to worry about. Or at least reciognize that it will be tough for me. I'm still planning on saying have a safe trip. Tell your grandpa hi. And that's it. Easier said than done. What if she brings up me being anxious. Do I lie and say I'm not? Definitely be a Xanax day tomorrow.
Not looking for sympathy but just had talk with my dad yesterday about putting him in a nursing home. Now gave to get him moved. He's deteriorating fast which [censored] to see. So my stress level is through the roof and I have to act confident. No problem
