Ok, my night out after not so great morning started awful ended fun.
He ended up seeing a photo of me, just my makeup before I went out and he texted me to tell me I look "cute". I never said anything since I didnt know what to say.
I had a few guys try to talk to me but I politely shooed them away, once they knew I wasn't going home with them they would leave too. One guy came over with a drink and then said I bought you a drink, want to hook up. I STILL WEAR MY RING. I was like what type of place did you take me to. I was very uncomfortable and wanted to leave.
Finally we left and went somewhere more my style, I got to dance alittle, have 1 drink, look really pretty and smile. Got taco bell at 2:45 am on the way home. I just got home at 3:15 am my time.
I think today was a hard emotional day. I cant wait for tomorrow. I hope I wake up in a better Db mindset and not so..give up and walk away mind set.
Roar and Squiggy you guys both vave me great advice I need to listen to and follow starting when I wake up.
I didnt realize how much of a roller coaster marriage and separation can be! The highs are high..but the lows..oh man they are low.
Tomorrows goals- keep working on me. Start my wreck this journal my friend got me today. Try to get out of this gove him the D and walk away to make the pain hurt mindset.
