Tried to get D23 to go ski with me today, but she begged off so I went up by myself. Blasted the radio and yelled along (I would never call it singing) all the way up the mountain. I felt pretty good.
On my first lift ride, as I neared the top, I could see someone below and ahead of me looking up. And staring. As I got closer I realized it was H. He had told me last night he was thinking of not going, so I was a little surprised. He and one of the people I am going on my ski trip with were skiing together so he asked me to join them. I did. Then the friend cut off and said he was heading home and left us there.
I turned to H and told him he didn't have to ski with me. He told me I didn't have to ski with him. I headed down the hill and he followed. Then he asked if I wanted to do another run so we rode up together again. Skied to the lodge and he asked if I wanted some soup because he was freezing. We had a pleasant lunch and drinks that he paid for...no R talk. It felt like a slightly awkward date. Skied a bit more, then he left.
I continued on a bit longer. I'm getting better, faster,and more comfortable...more confident. Almost like I used to feel, only as a better skier.
Not sure why he does this, though. I guess it should make me happy that I can show him my changes during these interactions. But I wonder if he's just trying to prove to me that he's a "nice" guy, despite our situation. Guilt at play, maybe. I'll never know.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
