Hope is not a Strategy- It looks done

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If you choose to investigate a possible A , and you find one, you will be hurt like no hurt you ever felt before. It will make your current pain seem like a day in the park.
After months of thinking there was no OM, I had an idea something was happening, but confirmation makes it real. Despite the hurt, I'm glad I did it.
It let me know exactly what I was dealing with and allowed me to take control of how to proceed.
As opposed to what I had been doing, which was basically trying to improve myself while hoping for a change in her. Constant vigilance in watching her actions. Expectations were always there.
I didn't truly improve until I knew the truth.
Some here say it is better not to know. Others say it is important to investigate and know what your S is doing.
I agree with the latter. If you find an A, it will hurt. In time, you will be relieved that you finally know the truth.