It's ok to feel sadness MB. You have to let it out or it builds up and comes out when you don't want it to.

I haven't gone as long as you with NC and I am sure it is not easy at all. There are times when I try to tell myself maybe it would be easier with NC, deep down I know it wouldn't be.

You have been over to my thread and have probably seen I get down when I feel stuck at home or not up to doing anything. It's tough to want to do anything when your down, you just have to pull yourself up sometimes tho.

Can you get outside for a bit? Find a friend to visit? Clean up something? Anything to change your thought process. Put on some music and dance around like no one is watching!

You reminded me yesterday about the ups and downs. Remember we are here to help. Be good MB. I'm praying for you and hope I can return one of the smiles you give to me.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.