gs9 - I'm looking really hard at myself right now, and the damage I did in the marriage - the years of me being proud and stubborn and not seeing how my wife wanted to be 'safe'. My addiction, my anger got in the way.
gs9 - think about the way you can always keep your feet below you. If you're thinking of her, you leaned on her. You had her as a crutch for you. How can you stand, confident and ready for anything?
I think you remodeling the house is just awesome. Playing with D4, being a great dad. You're headed in the right direction. I bet in a month from now, with good activity, good positive thinking, you'll have way less of the negative swings. I see that in my life as well.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)