Going to take the boys to watch some hockey today and to get out of the house. Boys and I have had a good day playing so far.

I would love to go outside and play in the snow but there is a brutal wind today and won't make for a lot of fun. So we are going to get out and see some friends at hockey hopefully and give us a chance to get out and socialize a bit.

Mind is wandering to conversations W and I had before bday and I get upset with myself for not seeing this coming. I feel like if I had caught these and addressed them I wouldn't be dealing with this. On the other hand I starting to see this situation as a blessing of sorts. A chance to find my happiness again though I never knew I had lost it. To gain back my lust for life after falling into a boring sit at home rut.

It's not always easy to find the silver linings, but you will never find them if your not looking for them.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.