OKAY SO THIS IS MY DAY-Needless to say I AM BALLIN MY EYES OUT
WAH called to ask how the kids are..tell me he went over finances and he can only give me 400$ a month in child support for both kids. He doesn't want to go to court and get into some battle over money and that is all he can give me. He wanted to know if that is okay and that is what he will start giving me now for child support.
He said him and his dad got into a huge fight over him staying there and they are making him move out by the end of Febuary so he wants me to ask if I can move out of our house and into my moms(aka me and kids sharing one bedroom at my moms house or sharing a bedroom with my mom.) He said he was going to tell me monday(the SAME day he is over smacking my butt and being all loving) but it made him feel shitty to ask so he had todo it on the phone.
I was very strong in the beginning, I let him vent about his parents and validated his feelings. I did tell him I thought he was going to give me a few months to figure out my situation and he said his dad is pushing the whole if we are getting a divorce we need to hurry up and get it started already because it can take awhile type deal.
He said he has not seen any lawyers and he doesn't want to see any lawyers right now and he isn't talking about speeding up the D process just maybe finding me somewhere else to live. I told him my mom already said no. That she isn't sharing a room with me and my kids. (My mom said she will do what she has to do but I don't want him to know this and kick me out. I refuse to be kicked out until the D is in the process or until I CHOOSE TO LEAVE.)
I told him I wish he had told me that he told his parents we were getting the D 100% because when I got a call from his aunt telling me it kinda sucked. He said he only told his dad that because they got into a huge fight that almost got physical.
I mostly was quiet. I had a shirt over my face to stop from crying. I tried getting off the phone about 2823472 times and he was like wait I'm not done.
I just said okay, I will talk to my mom again. What will we do if she says no? He said he will just move back into the house with me and the kids and we will figure out how to be together but separated. Maybe sleep in different rooms. He doesn't want to live together but if it's a last resort he won't make me leave with the kids. I kinda saw that as good because then MAYBE I can show him how different I am? Maybe. I don't know.
I feel like my world is crumbling down around me. I finally was like I need to get off the phone,I'm not in the mood to talk about this, I don't want to cry on the phone and I will talk to you another day.
He ended the call with why won't you talk to me? Why won't you tell me what is going on in your head(I'M A HUGE TALKER.) I am still here for you and want to know you are okay. I am still here for you sweetie.
I said I am going to be FINE, plus I don't think running to the man who is leaving you is the best place to turn for comfort now is it?
He said I just want you to know I want to be here for you, I always will be.
I said bye and hung up. Now i'm ballin my eyes out.
