Squiggy- yes yesterday made me feel good making a plan and talking to the L and planning. I feel more prepared for either plan A or plan B.

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I dont think he would get angry to a violent level with me. Hes never been violent with me besides yelling a few times and if someone yells at me I automatically cry then he feels bad and its over..BUT with being separated I DONT KNOW.

I have seen him get mad at video games and punch a wall and put a hole in it or throw the controller at the wall and have a tantrum.

I just know I don't want to make him mad where he feels like he needs to do some revenge thing like going out with some girls or something stupid.

I dont plan on telling him BUT MY STEPSISTER will. She is a social media obsesser with her friends. I never post any of my business but she will.

A typical day for her is literally post 10 things, tag her self into places, upload 5-6 selfies. And her friends are going and they are all the same and even if they don't tag me I already can expect to show up in some photos.

AND SHE TOLD HIS SISTER ALREADY because they are friends and invited her too so my sister in law knows and prob my MIL,FIL, and WAH all know by now too. -_-

Since my separation my facebook has turned into people just tagging me in photos or places with them. I dont GO on my facebook but once a week or two but they don't get it when I say DON'T tag me please.

He never posts or get tagged in anything so there is no proof he goes out drinking 3-4 times a week. I tried to tell them I don't need to give him proof or reasons to make my life harder.

Even photos they don't tag me in he will see because he is friends with all of them and can look on their stuff. Like for one bachelorette party there was a photo of me smiling with my drink talking to my friend in the background and he saw them and kept bringing it up and about my dress looking too short.

He knew I was going it was his cousin and a few family members and his cousins friends and he watched me get dressed before I went and didnt like my dress then and I changed my heels to shorter ones because he wouldn't stop complaining about me going out in 5" heels because I would fall and they looked dangerous.

He said he knows I'm a great mom and would never try to take the kids from me especially with his schedule where he works so much, overnights, then sleeps all day.. But that can always change. He can always decide to get nasty later.

And no his job is not friendly at all and he is on the extraction team at work..so when you see the guys in the shield and with the gas bombs etc on tv going in to whoop butt he gets to do that too. I will say this job took him from my sweet caring cna taking care of old people to pretty cocky and working out,thinking he is a bad A.


Me:24 H:26
T:7yrs M:4yrs
S:4 D:5
ILYBNILWY 12/5
PA Confirmed 2/19