Day by Day..Hour by Hour 4

[Rain75]

I can't believe this..I was so happy last night when I saw that all of us were online at the same time and what do I do? I fall a-freakin-sleep! Ugh

Shame on me.

Thanks guys. Maybe it isn't true. I have no idea. With XF you never know and that's just how it is.

And NYG...he really does need counseling. And I can't be with him now even if he wanted me too. His mentality on cheating is scary. He knows its wrong and that he hurt me and that it (his words) cost him everything, however, we had a calm talk and he said ow and cam girls made him feel good when I didn't. He was quite serious. As if that makes it okay.

I won't live a life walking on eggshells. I'm human..there will be disagreements and if he decides I'm not making him feel a certain way at any given time then he will seek it elsewhere. He said "that's not necessarily true". And I say with our recent history thats such a huge possibility and I want none of that. I paid my A dues. Enough is enough.

Is he just trying to get me over to the dark side? Possible. Because then he can have one of those Rs where he loves me and has his family and "takes care of home" plus he gets to dip his stick on occasion. Well, he can have it, but not with me. I stupidly did it once trying to "stand by my man". Not again.